ERRRRRRRRRRRR........... -.- 19/4 , my birthday ,12am , she sent me a birthday message . I was happy :) ..after school , stay back until 5pm . sent her back home , under her block ,she gave me something , a small little heart .My name and her name was curve on the small little heart , after that , we kissed , longest kissed ever , some more we kissed twice and then she kissed me on my cheek . hug her ,tight , real tight .after this , walked home slowly ....but don't know why , heart is still pain ,like my heart is lacking of something... i don't know......... haix ..its hurts ! pain !... haix ....
Fuck! again , Friday , Sat , sun . the days that i hated the most .Friday , always have problem with her , the problem is either me or her , every week , every friday ...haiix ..why sia ? always me , creating problems . fuck! Some more , never get to kiss her today, thinking and thinking about THE SHOE THAT GUANG WEI GIVE ME !!!! FUCK HIM ! his the reason for this problem :P :P . haiix ..........soon.. soon ....endure ? patient ? i'll wait . untill she kiss / hug me , i'm not going to do anything ..... Endurance ..
One whole day never contact/message her .. feeling dam weird ... my prepaid is down . lazy to top up , anyway if i top up , can't even message her . really miss her now ...keep looking at her picture that i took it from her ...Thinking and thinking ....of her . It is my fault that her mother don't let her play computer anymore ............maybe i shouldn't interfere her life at the first place . wonder what she's doing now ............the feeling of kiss had gone too .......................................................................
haiix ... haven't even officially start holiday ,and now..dam miss her .. :( thinking about holiday makes me feel real sad ..feel like crying ( so dam useless) , my heart is crying again ,what a useless heart .. :'( tomorrow camp some more .gonna be a torturing camp .there is nothing to do at home anyway .. Just need to endure for 9 days .. to get to see her .. wanna hug her real tight now :( .. if time really stop , today after school i will be with her :( ,hugging her never let go ...cause of me , her mother wants her bacck on time ..after school haix ...wonder how she feels when she knows i cried ......... i admit , i am a weird guy .....
Holiday has started !! ...but i hated holiday! cannot see her ...hug her or even kiss her ..haix ! have to endure !!!!!! for 9DAYS !!!! i wanna feel the feeling of kiss again ! Today is the second time we kissed :) so .. soft :) , feeling of kiss still here , i can still feel it ..:)but haix .. worst thing , cannot even contact her , why ? because HEr prepaid no money left :( .. by right , have to wait for 9 and half day , can't kiss her in the morning , only in the afternoon . :) ENDURE !!!!!!
What the Fuck Is wrong with me ? ... every time thinking of Breaking with Xin Ying .. why ? like check hwee said , "wtf is wrong with u? srsly. U keep thinking problems that don't exist??" ...getting further and further away from knowing myself ....Fuck ! ... Xin Ying ... i'm truly sorrrrry for every thing i have done , hurt you . i really love you !
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